The Act Of Restitution

When I forgave you, and I forgave myself; it was a good thing. And the most wise thing that we could have done, was to start off from the very beginning, not from where we left off. There's no sense in a resurrection, if you are going to crucify over and over again. When trust was broken, you were forgiven, and you were given another chance to show you could be trusted; you start fresh, from the beginning. Don't ask to be trusted, if you are going to break it again, repeatedly. It bruises the heart. And you were willing to lose, to sacrifice the person you said you loved and cared for---for what? For nothing. Who are you giving up on--all because you are dealing with some aggression. Think about it. ♥

New Start

There's a lot to be gained, much to learn through temporal pain, and could possibly be the key to finding extended, long-term happiness. When the time comes to move on, a mistake most people make is not being attentive of what to look for, instead they learn what to avoid. The key is to focus on what’s most important, seek acceptance, and let your experiences make you a better person. In the event you find you're still struggling, hurting from your past, perhaps it's because you have yet to receive what you need, and/or know in order for you to move forward. It's not so much about you learning life's experiences for the sake of appearing intelligent; seek wisdom and simply apply them to your life. Try not to make the same choices, decisions repeatedly over and over again, and stop calling them a mistake, they're not a mistake, the problem is you haven’t learned yet. Is the story still the same for you, sad? Stop taking experiences for granted. Maybe it's time you begin to take full responsibility. Whatever it is that you're doing must change. Everything we go through in life pretty much has something to gain, to learn, to build our strength, and mold us into the person we're purposely meant to be. Take your experiences and gain strength, courage from them, let it build your confidence, look fear in the face, face your giants, and tell yourself; if I made it through that, then I will most assuredly make it through the next element that comes my way.

Taking Control:

Let's face it; you can’t always take things too personal.  Others actions and words shouldn’t be modified to walk warily, quietly around your feelings. There comes a point where one must learn how to take and accept the truth for what it is. Creating unnecessary assumptions and manipulating words, situations are nothing more than an new way for you to lie to yourself and possibly those who surround you. Learn how to discern when you’re in a certain "mood”, how to check your attitude, and when to draw back. No-one should have to walk on pins and needles because the other is being entirely too sensitive. Catch yourself before you say and do when you’re extremely infuriated. Being lead with your feelings can quickly turn into you being faced with regrets.  Anger is a strong feeling of displeasure, which then leads to malice and arrogance. It doesn't take much intelligence, thought to be angry; which explains why most of what a person says when angry sounds pretty much ridiculous. When you don’t like something it does not justify that everybody doing it is wrong. Never apologize for being you. If honesty is what you want, then honesty is what you get. Exclude all complaining, don't let it be a part of what you do twenty four seven. Allowing your emotions get the best of you or crying a river is not always necessary when you're being faced with elements. Remember, when asking somebody else to change, it also implies and requires you to prepare yourself to do the same. Be willing to give as much as you take. Not everything said or done is to be taking to heart. Be in tune with your emotions, not controlled by them.

Holding Onto Nothing

When you need closure in a relationship and it is not forthcoming, you simply have to give it to yourself. Holding onto something completely out of your control is draining, distracting and does a disservice to everyone around you. If you are facing a similar situation, simply let go, give yourself the gift of closure today and look ahead to brighter days. Why not start by remembering all the wonderful things you experienced and shared, and not focus so much on the bad moments; even if the bad over weighs the good. There are a couple important points one should never take away, and those are: actions speak louder than words and not everything, no matter how spectacularly wonderful it appears/feels, is meant to be. That last one is probably the hardest. It's probably one of the most toughest processes to progress and overcome. In addition, one must always do the following; learn from your mistakes and/or bad choices, a very important applicable key. Always love no matter what, if someone can't accept you for who you are, and are willing to give, that doesn't mean you have to compromise yourself, nor give up on you, and what you believe in.
A few things I know and have learned is; I'm not a dreamer when it comes to relationships, sharing my life with a special person. Knowing who you are and need in life, helps establish your way of what you'll accept, tolerate, and/or not.
Sometimes our only transgression is simply being blind to the possibility of it not being the right person (in regards to an intimate relationship).
Whether it be an intimate or platonic relationship, if both parties are not invested, someone will always feel robbed. In some cases you are forced to accept that not everyone is willing to reason or listen to cogent advice/reason--the furtherance of the crime is when you know it and allow it to continue. There is a saying that goes: "a leopard cannot change its spots." Ultimately, who we are at our core is precisely that and well embedded.

Truth being is, at some point  you have to let go, forgive, forgive yourself and let be......#tf

Prevailing Truth

Doing right is never wrong. Being honest and trustworthy is the way to live. Perhaps a slight twist of the facts might bring a short term gain. A little misrepresentation might bring some short term satisfaction. But in the end truth always wins, so live like a winner! ♥

My spirit is broken, my days are extinct, the grave is ready for me. Surely there are mockers around me, and my eye dwells on their provocation. "Lay down a pledge for me with yourself; who is there that will give surety for me? Since you have closed their minds to understanding, therefore you will not let them triumph.
(Job 17:1-4)

For the LORD loves the just and will not forsake his faithful ones. They will be protected forever, but the offspring of the wicked will be cut off..
(Psalm 37:28)

I Remember...

I remember the underlying feeling.
I remember the day when I walked up the stairway and being swept by your loving arms; our love, that reached beyond the ceiling.
I remember you love me.
I remember the taste of your tears as we held each other, wrapped up in each others love; our pounding hearts.
I remember looking into your eyes and touching your soul.
I remember being your queen, your wifey, the charm, the one; your glow.
I remember bathing each other in the soft lathering aroma and how our hearts couldn't stop smiling; showering, almost as if we were in a coma.
I remember you taking me to our bed as we gazed in each others eyes, as we slowly pulled the black sheets and comforter to a side; our hearts racing.
I remember our bodies meshing together as one.
I remember the fragrance of your body as I laid with you, my face clinging to your skin; we're one. (my nose always so cold).
I remember waking up to the rich smell of freshly ground kona--lingering from my nightstand; so warm.
I remember your sweet tender kisses on my forehead, face, body, and hands.
I remember meeting you in my dreams--you're my dream come true; and still, my man.
I remember feeding you.
I remember wiping your mouth clean.
I remember giving you drink, my king.
I remember your specialty; best tuna sandwich I've ever eaten.
I remember watching you as you worked and played; I couldn't believe I was forever there to stay.
I remember you.
I remember the breathtaking moment the minute our souls would connect, we knew we were made for each other, such a percfect fit; surely it must of been God's plan.
I remember being safe, especially the time when we were exposed to the world but yet we were there all alone, no-one else existed; a pool full of love.
I remember our spot, underneath the moon and stars, caressing; oh what blessed love.
I remember making love with our minds; how could anyone ever forget? Yes, you're definitely and always will be mine.
I remember our little family; so very special like the day you asked me to marry.
I remember blessing you, praying for you; I do--always fighting for you.
I remember waiting for my work day to end so that my day would begin; with you.
I remember the frequent smiles; the "I love yous"
I remember I'm forever yours, and you're forever mine.
I remember my love...do you?
I remember; give me a sign.

Who Are You Wasting Your Time On?

Face it; if you are with the wrong person, then you’re just with the wrong person. Surely you can long for them, desire them, love them, admire, adore them, and genuinely want them, but if they’re not the one for you, nothing you do will make it work. Amazing how people will go through hell trying to save a bad relationship from ending, unfortunately. Isn't time to accept the fact that--when it’s over, it’s over. Yes, starting over isn't always easy, as a matter of fact, it's hard work, but wouldn't you rather work on moving on than waste time on an unfortunate situation. People aren’t discouraged about relationships because of the stress they cause, it’s more so because they don’t know how to recognize when they’re wasting their time. There comes a time when you have to stop thinking you can teach people lessons they don’t want to learn. Stop being one of those people who will continue to have the same arguments over and over again just for the sake of looking like they care, not for the purpose of changing. How about paying attention to the times where a person’s intentions fail to catch up to their actions. Don’t fall for that “this is what I’m used to” excuse because people change when they want to change, and it’s as simple as that. Don’t mistake a desire to make you happy with a plan to change. The reality is, is that some people are great at pacifying a situation but horrible at actually fixing the issue. The ability to accept, appreciate, and understand the truth is a priceless virtue. Few people actually know what they want, so they use people to get by or simply because they don't want to feel alone, or rejected. Then there are many who will just take whatever they can get. It’s easy to set your standards high on the good days, but when you’re discouraged and tired, find the strength to have what it takes not to settle. You cannot change a person’s feelings; it’s a waste of time trying to. If the situation starts wrong, it will most likely end wrong. Stop signing up for disappointment and then get mad when you get it.

el Rey

♥ ...el rey de los cielos, el rey de me vida, el rey de los reyes, el mas poderoso, el que toma control de mi vida, el que robo mi corazon desde aquel dia muy especial! El que siempre proclamare de su gran amor, fidelidad, misericordia, gracia y justicia; mi rey!! Y, asi es, y para siempre sera! ♥

"P.S. I Love You..."

Anyone can say "I love you", anyone. It takes a very special person to show you. I believe in love being an act of doings, not just a basket full of words. And telling someone the truth is an act of love...

Hold Onto Hope

I encourage you to stay. No matter what you're going through, what storms are raging around you; God never promised we wouldn't endure hardship, but He did promise he would take us through, and that we'd be over-comers. So hold on. To the hope of God. Like David did. Wait. Because your redemption is near..


Never let it go! Nothing is more unintelligent than giving up on hope...(Psalms 34:18)