Maybe, just Maybe:

Has it ever crossed your mind that maybe it’s not supposed to be easy for you. Perhaps you’re one of the few that can handle tough times, hard trials and tribulations, and through it all, still choose to be a loving, compassionate, and caring person. Has it ever accrued to you it’s going how it’s going because you’re built for it. Maybe there's still a chance for you to turn things around, maybe you still have time to choose to be different. Maybe God would rather slow it all down, frustrate you, than letting things keep going as they were or to let it all keep going the way it is now and fail you. Ever thought this is your time to refine? Could it be the pieces are being put back together or into position, once again? What if all this isn't a test--there's a big possibility there's a future tailored made specifically to what’s best for you ahead, and perhaps taking it all into consideration, understanding that rushing it all could bring it to ruin. Maybe you’re as different as you feel, maybe you’ll stay strong long enough to teach people to feel the same about themselves or see things, life in your perspective. Perhaps we’ll call it love. Why not see this as what your growth looks like in this season, and be okay with knowing it’s okay to accept and love that person anyway. As long as you know you’re giving or gave it your all, and you're giving and gave the very best of you that you have to give. Keep going, keep moving, no matter what others may say or think, after all, this is your life. Don’t stress a thing. It’s going to work out because you're not going to stop but continue to put in the work. Everything will work out as it should and all for your good at the end of it all, knowing, God has your back and has the last word, and knowing, He will uphold you, keep you and sustain you.

It's Not Rocket Science:

We all have to come to the conclusion that not every person you meet, encounter, fall in love with will have the capacity to acknowledge, understand, appreciate the goodness you may acquire. Many have grown accustom to drama, arguing, debating, and not knowing when to pick their battles. They are so used to dysfunctional relations, surroundings, upbringings so much so they don't value the simplicity of what's good and/or notice a good thing when faced with one. 

It's not rocket science--the problem is most people are too busy playing mind games, not being true to their feelings, and not owning up to what they say and so their actions speak volumes. 

Why are so many asking for something real when they can't bring real to the table? Too many running and rushing into finding love instead of letting love find them and/or learning to love themselves first before expecting others to love them. 

Maybe this is the reason why people walk around most of their lives wondering why it's so difficult to find love or why love can't find them. 

Perhaps the first thing we must learn in order to keep things in perspective and on track is to first learn to respect oneself, have some respect for others in order to receive respect in return, teach people to respect your time, how to put forth the same amount of effort as you do, learning how to keep your word followed by your actions, to always be honest and staying consistent. Loyalty abounds in rewarding results.

Love is a battle field full of fields of magical love waiting to happen. Let love happen. Love doesn't come easy and when it reaches you, it's worth the challenge, worth the sacrifice. In order to let love grow you must give it a chance to experience the electricity of two force fields emerge. Don't fight it, work it.

Give Yourself A Break...

I'm an empath- you may find yourself asking why - why is it so difficult to get over a situation as fast as you'd like? Well perhaps it's because you're a good person, with a good heart and with good intentions, with sincere feelings and emotions. You may be an empath. 
The best of you, your greatest, your most sensitive being and strengths were used against you---and you were utterly betrayed. It takes a lot to be able to take it all in, and possibly take more time to heal and be made whole again. So we ask ourselves, why do I feel the need to heal and feel better faster, instead of just going through the process of it all without delay? Should it matter? Yes, it does, it's your heart! 
Constantly disappointed in ourselves just because life took us for a loop and were set a few steps back. Most of us find ourselves at every waking day with disappointment knowing we are still not fully healed. Take note that for some, it may be days, months, years, however long, understand in this process of healing you have to give yourself a break from time to time, no matter how long it takes. 
You'll have your good days, bad days, and maybe more often than you like, you'll find yourself fighting daily to stay as strong and keep your head above the waters. Know not everyone is perfect and not everyone knows and understands what you're going through, they may be the ones to trigger you, it could be anything: something they said, or didn't say, something they did or didn't do. 
It could be anything that will set you off, trigger you and you loose it--right in the moment when you’re overwhelmed by anger and sadness. 
Stop, and remember how far you've come and everything you've been through that didn't kill you, completely. Unraveling the thought and understanding that, that kind of emotional damage indeed takes time. You not only were madly in love, you were wrapped in euphoria, and that's the deepest. You went from an all high to an ultimate low state. Understand this: your heart and soul were tortured. 
So give yourself a break!!!

Living Beyond Expectations

"Get clear on what your idea of a good time in this life is, and relieve yourself of feeling that you need to live up to others expectations" ~Jeannette Maw 

We're all conditioned to be expected to live by societal, cultural stand point of expectations that of society and so forth: going to college--getting married--living a particular lifestyle--rising a career--having kids, etc. 
These are all patterns, and patterns can be readjusted to your liking, it doesn't necessarily have to be to others liking but yours, to make you happy, because only YOU are in charge of your happiness and how long you obtain it. 
It's up to you and only you. Not in the car you drive, the amount you have in your bank account, nor the person whom you choose to have in your life as a partner. You can possess all these elements and still be very much unhappy. Don't be fooled and conformed into what society expects of you, rather be formed into the person you are happy and pleased with. Be the person you want to see everyday in the mirror, let life reflect from your presence, your life, of who you truly want to be and are to be. Be your happy self.
Make you happy to attract the goodness you long for and so rightfully deserve. Don't be ashamed of your status, your condition, your life-style--live the life you know makes you happy and eliminate the noise enticing you to take on an agenda that isn't for you. 
Attract what is good for you, and the desires of your heart, mind and soul. ‪#‎LOA‬ ‪#‎LawOfAttraction‬ ‪#‎GoodVibes‬

Your Secret's Safe

Everyone has their own interpretation of what being single is all about. Some don't understand what it truly means to be single, the benefits of being "single." Many may also find it to be a very unfortunate state in life. Is the single life a state of being comfortable in a position we were taught by society to not be so comfortable in? Perhaps it's a place in ones life where you may perceive it as having an opportunity of making things more clearer in your life, clearing out the clutter, and a chance at starting anew and improving your life for the better? 

People are so easily persuaded into labeling the single status as an mishap. Ever stop and wondered the contrary? Seeing it and understanding it with a different mindset, viewing it from an different angle, with a more positive perspective? 

Limited thinkers neglect to think that being single is a 'choice' and not being someone awaiting so eagerly, while being so politely patient, waiting, sitting around to be found. No, it's completely far from it actually, it's a stance of being devoted not only to oneself but to many other aspects and good fortunes in life, not limited to just one single person other than themselves. 

What's more unfortunate than being single is being one of those people who are in and out of relationships, from one to the next, and to the next, and never giving a chance for savoring the realness of what was lost, what was broken, what ended rather than lasting as expected. They don't give themselves time enough to heal, bouncing around from one partner to another religiously. Where's the significance, the importance, the necessity of having a significant other? It's one of life's precious gifts, to be able to understand the full capacity of knowing the importance, the beauty of having someone to share your life with.

On the other hand, being single shouldn't be idealized as being idle, sitting around waiting for love, looking for love. Instead it should be about finding things to love, around you, the people that surround you in your daily life, or new people you may encounter, it's finding the time to love others, and learning to love yourself even more. Finding the time to love the life you were and are so fortunate enough to have. This kind of understanding brings about maturity, as a person, with the understanding it's a new way of life to explore and discover the greater you and what you have to offer life, and others, your value, your worth. 

Learn life has no boundaries when you are free to extend your capabilities at its fullness. Living the single life is far from being alone, rather it's about enjoying you, enjoying your own company and doing as much as you can to edify your life in a much high level of growth. Turn it around for your good, make the best of your single life, making it right for YOU, and advance into making a better version of you, while you have the chance. 

Find your passion and run with it. Focus on being your best partner. 
Leaving all what once held you behind. Find a passion that'll never run off and leave you, cheat on you, make you go astray nor disappear without a trace. 
Get in between the sheets with your passion, make love to it, cherish it, as you would a partner. Take this time to love harder, without any expectations. 
Giving freely with expecting nothing in-return.

It doesn't always have to be about seeking love to love you, no, it's about seeking what all there is to love in life and making the very best of it. And you know it'll be a kind of love that will be reciprocated because of all the effort you'll put into it. 

Have a passionate affair with a good book, great movie, best places to eat, something you love doing like going for a walk, swim, a bike ride, and so forth. Finding a passion to make you a better you and not someone else. 

Make this a time to heal from all you need healing from--travel the world if you have to. Take this time to overcome what needs overcoming even if it takes years, do it anyway. Working on making oneself whole again, facing all the rights and wrongs about you and building an empire within yourself so you can work on building an empire for your entire life. Find out what's wrong with you first before trying to find out what's wrong with others. 
Deal with you, face you--face to face, front and center. Being alone and single and attaining a stability of self awareness. Taking your chances and make this all about you, selfishly, yes. Selfishly in a sense where it's to completely work on building a better you, because it's totally necessary.

The Spark Is Out

Once a bond which tied two flames is destroyed, the flame will no longer be ignited as it once was or as it was in the beginning. You can add water, oxygen, heat to that flame, but the fire will no-longer be the same, however, it will only die out until there is nothing left but ashes. Overly obsessiveness, jealousy, lies, deception, non-reciprocated love, the lack of action and/or effort, will destroy what once was or what once could've been.

Am I saying there is no hope for true love, of course not, true love will always find it's way.

For instance, in my last, previous relationship, I knew right from the start it would've never worked, maybe only managed to get it as far as we could in order to avoid "giving up." I know now and actually pretty much knew then it would've been an unsuccessful affair--not fair to him, because he still had his whole life ahead of him while I had fortuitously lived a whole lot of mine. In a sense, I would've robbed him of potentially living his life to the fullest, or so it would be to him. Therefore, I'm okay with knowing he has moved on into his right direction, path, a new beginning, a new chapter into his new life with full possibilities tied to goals, dreams and desires. Seeing there was a 10 year gap, him being younger, it's safe to say it was a relationship built on infatuation and not true love. It was a moment of satisfaction to spark the ego and flesh. Maybe love played a part, but it wasn't strong enough to keep the spark from going out.

Will I ever love again, of course I will. Will I ever be loved again, of course.  And so will you. I am ready when it comes. I am open and willing to accept the good that is for me, that is definitely, without a doubt, meant for me. I don't want what seems to be, rather I want what is, and true; everything as it should be--we all do.

Sometimes sparks will stay ignited forever, while some sparks will die, fade away and wither into ashes. But the love, love never fades away, it's only handled differently with every different situation, with every unknown experience.

I don't believe in there only being one soulmate per person, I can trust there are more than one soulmate per soul. Love comes, love moves, love goes, and love comes again, but it never dies. Love is love. We have bonds that are no longer tied together because two souls lost each other in the game of fantasy. A true bond, will never be broken nor torn apart. 

This kind of bond I'm referring to is formed when sincere feelings of love, respect, and attraction are placed with an adventurous imagination, stability, security, connective-ness, and all these attributes are key to an successful, intimate, positive relationship--all to keep the spark ignited, and never replaced with the contrary. Placing anything else as priority will assuredly destroy the connection--anything else is a mere relationship built on pure infatuation waiting for destruction.

You can never be too careful with love but you can choose whom you will share your love with and whom you will let in. The heart wants what the heart wants, but the heart has a mind of it's own. The heart and mind work together as one and when these two are in alignment, and in agreement, you will be balanced enough to know the difference between a true, real bond verses an in-dept infatuation, of an untrue bond.

An Unrealistic Dream

Hope. Hope is what I had when I had a dream, a dream I could see you become the man I know you were intended to be, and still, the man I know God wanted you to become, and knew you'd eventually be, because I had an indescribable faith in you. My hope was you could see the vision I carried or that somehow you could find yourself relating to it too. I could see so much potential, promise, success, so much goodness--it was almost as if the man I could see was already there, hoping you would have seen him too. The motivation, persistence and progression was nearly overwhelming. All the insecurities, the doubtfulness and dis-encouragements were completely out of sight, out of touch--no where to be found in the lake of positive possibilities. In this dream, all the past hurts, the wounds were far from us, too distant for us to know they ever existed. You began to believe in the unbelievable. I showed you a glimpse of how wonderful life could be and you allowed me to come into your sacred world and you opened up to me like no other. You see, I had this magical dream that somehow I could change you, change me, change us, for us. But then I woke up. I woke up to see you were no-longer there next to me, to share the dream, to bring the dream into reality. I realized you would've never recognized the person I had faith in. Perhaps you weren't ready to become the man you ought to be--the vision was overpowering. The faith I had in us would be, we would eventually become the 'we' we were made for and/or meant to be. No point in settling for a man in my dreams I could never come to see, meet, in this lifetime--a dream that would never come true. I learned I had to change my feelings towards you, the way I felt, all of this inside, this image I had of you, instead I decided it was time to let go and move on, not for you, but to set myself free from an unrealistic dream--a dream only I could see or ever dream of.

I Am So Sorry...

sorry if i hurt you....

sorry if you didn't like the things i said or did

sorry if with you i always seem to put up a fight
sorry if i didn't do everything right

sorry for sometimes being far from an angel

sorry if i made too many excuses, or maybe even for a small lie
sorry if it was sometimes too difficult for quitting my vice

sorry if i wasn't too understanding of your truth, and some of your lies
sorry that my being too nice wasn't kind enough at times.

sorry for the headaches and pain, along with some tides
sorry if at times i found it hard for me to swallow my pride
sorry if i was often too blinded by anger to see your side

sorry if at times i was complicated
sorry for sometimes making you feel so frustrated
sorry i couldn't, or am not able to fight back the tears

sorry if i almost kept you away from all of your peers

sorry if i always complained about you not meeting all my expectations
sorry if at times i couldn't fight those temptations
sorry if i seemed like a joke to you
sorry if i didn't appreciate all those sweet nothings...
sorry for the things you did and were willing to do

sorry if i kept on repeating the same mistakes
sorry for saying some stupid things and for not finding the breaks
sorry i made you mad or ruined your day when mine was bad
sorry i brought the devil out of you

sorry if i screwed up being perfect for you
sorry i could never be the woman right for you
sorry if i was such an unpredictable human
sorry for not being successful at being your best friend.
sorry if my love was too strong to take in
sorry if i may have lacked meekness and instead was self seeking..
sorry if i couldn't surrender my whole being.
sorry if i couldn't help but see right through you.
sorry for not allowing you to insult my intelligence
sorry if you couldn't handle my elegance, instead you gave me negligence.. 
sorry...

p.s. I'm not sorry for still loving you...

So sorry, please forgive me.

.......

You Sure Can't Stay Here...

I don't understand why I get so emotionally drawn, involved and/or attached, nor can I explain why God gave me a heart like this, but He did, and there's nothing I can do to change it nor will I. Right here and now, at this point in my life where I can finally say, after so many years, I can now say I'm more happier now than I've ever been with who I am and what my life is all about in general. I've worked and am working extremely hard to keep myself well centered and grounded. As difficult and hard as it's been to get to where I am now, I will not allow anything or anyone be a negative influence in and over my life ever again. I cannot give to much of what I have to offer carelessly, and I don't intend to stop giving at any cost, however, if I'm not receiving back of what I'm willing to give and more, at some point this woman will step away, move around, and simply say, no more. There are some people, leeches that will take, and take, and take until they've completely drained you out, and sucked you dry, and won't stop until they see you almost lifeless. That being said; I will release those who've completely drained me out to the core, who are unappreciative of all that I've got to give. I hope nothing but the best for them and their continual journey. No-one deserves bad, negative vibes thrown at them, or intentionally given, and I'm definitely one who does not desire that nor tolerate such behavior. Although, we may have crossed paths for some reason or another, either way, I will cut bad ties that bind, and with the hopes that either of us learned something from the other--that there, is surely something to be grateful and thankful for, however. It's none of my business where you go from here, but you sure can't stay here. May life treat you right, may love find you always, may light surround you, and may God bless you in all. This is my life to live, my responsibility to maintain it, care for, love and nourish it, and make certain that I continue on regardless of any and all current situations and/or circumstances--moving forward, gracefully, as I should. There are no ties that bind too hard for me to untie, cut and release. I have the power to tie, bind, and unleash a bond at any time, and strong enough to keep it as long as I will allow to have it however I want it. 

Love & Light with a whole lot of Sugar & Spice---letting the spice of love and life flow, always; Follow your bliss....

'I Need You Because I Love You'

He asked; "what do you want?" At the time I tried to express it out the best I could, and maybe I did but not clearly enough to where he could hear me nor understand my interpretation thereof, however.

This is my answer for you now, and I hope it's crystal clear and in a way you may understand and take it all in. (And as I write this, I write this not only for you, but for others to have a clear understanding as well--whomever this reaches--ultimately, who God intended it for.)

I'm not sure if you're still interested in knowing--maybe you are, maybe not, I don't know, but since you really wanted to know then, and to eliminate any and all confusion and/or misunderstandings, please allow me to
elaborate and give a brief description and/or explanation:

In this day and age I've come to realize when asking a man what he can bring to the table is not so much financially because I've always been a woman who held her self up in all aspects, that's not to say I wouldn't mind having a companion to share life with cause clearly that is the ultimate goal of any respectful and honest woman. And please, let me correct you before you jump to any conclusions as to what I mean when I say "what do you have to bring to the table?" Is it money you may be asking yourself? No, it's so much more deeper than that. I'm in dire need of more.
I need a man who is willing to strive for excellence in every area of his life. Striving for excellence in everything he does or is placed in his possession. Excellence in his spiritual and mental life because I need someone who can draw me closer to God and not pull me away from Him. Someone who will be equally yoked with me--believers being with unequally yoked unbelievers or not walking nor being guided by the Holy Spirit is only calling out for an disruptive, corrupted and full of malice relationship. And I need some one who can challenge me mentally for knowledgeable growth, who can stimulate my mind through a profound and provoked conversation. Who understands striving for financial excellence is of significance, not because I'm a gold digger but because I'm your queen and it's your responsibility not to be a burden to me in any way shape or form. Someone who's eyes were made for me, his lips were made to kiss mine, his heart to beat for me, who needed me like he needs the air to breath. Someone who would be hopelessly devoted to me.

Someone who is sensitive enough to understand my weaknesses and my feminism and how sometimes I can be so highly emotionally sensitive, yet keep me well grounded. Someone with stability and who believes strongly in himself. Someone who's consistent, and slow to anger. 

One who has integrity in the foundation we have to build together as one for a firm and steadfast relationship. Someone I can grow with. A man who plays games and lies habitually is not my idea of a strong firm man. I need a family orientated man. A leader, a victorious man of God serving Him in pure excellence with the purpose God has for His life and the people He holds him responsible for and has entrusted him with. I won't have to worry about him being unfaithful or untruthful because knowing he has the fear of God in him will suffice. 
Someone I can respect. I cannot be submissive to a man who is not taking care of business, I must first respect him before I can be totally and completely submissive unto him; he must be worthy. He will find me or I will be found again. I never look for him because I know he'll find me. He'll find himself in me. Recognize immediately that I am his, I am the one. The connection may be unexplained but he'll always be drawn to me. God created woman to be his help-mate, but I can't help a man who won't help himself first. This may seem like a lot, and as surely I've clearly expressed it all here and am fully aware it is asking for quiet a bit but I am worth it all, and I am worth it. I truly hope this finds you well, dear, however, not limited.

And through all this; It's not because I'm picky, it's because I know clearly what I need and what I do not want.

'I need you because I love you'

I tremble at the thought of your touch that comes over me like thunder, rain falling over my skin so tenderly. I savor my lips imaging the sweet taste of you, how could I ever forget such magical showers that showered my mind, body and soul. You came and swept me away, took my heart and filled it with so much passion, brought me back to life, a life I thought had passed me by. Where did it go...blue.

Willingness To Change

There are those who are willing to work things out, those who are too comfortable in their current state, then you have those who will never consider change; they're afraid of change because change requires a mass amount of work and effort. Many are drawn away by fear, fear of change and stay in their comfort zone. In order to bring that change into your life-slow down-take time to think-reflect and then take action to change it. The willingness to change is essential. It’s your life; no-one has the power to change it but you. If you're not willing to change or change where change is needed you'll end up with the same results, and nothing or no-one can neither do it for you, make the decision for you nor make you see it. Motivate yourself to build the willingness to change, realizing that your life can be better than it is now and ever was. There's always room to improve, no matter how good your life is now. Always make room for change. Ultimately, whether your life goes right or left, up or down depends on you. You alone are responsible for your life choices. Remember, the change you seek is at your reach, within you--once you take the full responsibility you will be inspired to act and be effective. Why be a follower when you can be a leader? Live your life, and live it to your fullest potential with conviction, enthusiasm, confidence, eagerness, devotion, and passion--most importantly, have a willing heart and an open mind to consider new advantages--give yourself a chance to be exposed to new experiences. Take advantage of this lifetime that is filled with new challenges, opportunities and endless possibilities--eagerly waiting for you daily. Everyday, is a new day for a better you. Change it.

Constant Prayer

For those in whom inhabit in it, how magnificent it is that you permit and/or allow us to arrive at your feet, before your throne with a sincere heart. Knowing, Beloved Father, that You do not despise a humble and contrite heart, it's like a sweet smelling aroma to you--thank you for giving us the free will to choose among the good and evil, for the elect to love you without any pressure, restraints and without being obligated to, but only because we know how you are so worthy to be praised and worshiped. Thank you Father for you are good, your mercy is everlasting, and your grace is sufficient; in spite of our failures and our weaknesses, and in spite of being in human form you've given us control to conquer all that is good and all that is evil. This, without hesitation, receives all the adoration, all the honor and all the praise from the heavens to the earths. In your hands, we entrust each and every day--starting with our health, our family, our friendships, our home, our work, our finances, our every movement. Let your will be done in each and every one of us, Holy Father, because we cannot be in better hands other than yours. Thank you for permitting our hands, hearts, technology, and fixed minds to help collaborate with whom we may come in contact with, connect with that may need our help through your Holy Spirit. You give us the serenity to accept what we cannot change, wisdom and intelligence to resolve, to endure any and all difficulties, and the love you've installed in us, your divine mercy to share with others as you have shared with us. Send angels to surround us, our families, loved ones, and those of whom we have yet to make contact with--the world, bless us to the point our cup runneth over and have no room to receive, which will give us the ability to give more and more as the vessels you've molded us to be, and still--in Jesus name we ask this of you....Amen, Amen and Amen.

Criminal Hearts

Not how I wanted it to be, because I wanted, needed you here with me. Nothing left to say, nothing more to do but to turn away from you, love. 
Hope not to see you soon--such a hard habit to break--felt dismayed, struggling to keep from walking astray, only to get betrayed, by the one who once lead me on my way, to Him. 
Untamed, ruthless behavior, countless memories to savor. 
What love is this that nearly left me lifeless, mislead the dream held in our hands of an imperfectly perfect perpetual bliss to be dismissed into the abyss of everything scattered, shattered. 
Crushed--under a moment, underneath a moonlight, the starry skies, couldn't be brighter, more clearer than crystal clear, all with a perfect sneer. Explicit fluid inferred, fearless with intentional motive one could not deny, my dear.

Force Field

As we seek deeper with a spirit of gratitude for the little miracles that take place in our lives we'll come to appreciate them most when we accept not everything will be as perfect as we intend them to be. Every aspect in our lives, as presented, are presented with knowing it's all for a reason and all for a cause, and doing so with a great attitude. At some point we must understand that not everything is going to turn out as perfect as we had expected or how we had previously planned. Perhaps we should give some light, more consideration to the darkest, unpleasant moments that occur in our lives to appreciate the most pleasant ones with more thanksgiving and gratefulness. Even the darkest times have a meaning and a significance to learn us a few things about life. Sometimes the adversities are what gives us that extra forceful push of persistence, and perseverance to make it to the next level of awareness with an understanding and acceptance. In the mean time these energies are reinforcing, realigning and bringing back the balance throughout your life, allowing and drawing those energies back to you to play their part. Making every effort without reservation to receive what our universe has laid out for us, the wonders of Gods magnificent plan for our lives. This is what we then call creating our force field with abundance, harmony and unity--as one with God and the universe. Powerful. No-one can nor has the power to corrupt these forces but you. Taking the good with the bad, and breaking away from whatever or whomever blocks your flow of good vibrations and flow to manifest over into and out of your life. When you are more eager to learn and seek more awareness, spiritual harmony, positive vibrations, abundant joy, balance with great pleasure all will flow and find you. Creating an overflowing abundance and balance for your life under all conditions regardless of what life may throw your way or what your current status may be, against all odds, taking all risks. Don't block your chances, your purpose, your love from reaching you and reaching out to others. When we fall short of grace that is freely given to us, when we cut ourselves short, all we do is delay the process, and waste time in getting the desired results we so eagerly seek for which are meant for us to possess. Be open, be patient, be willing, be aware, and be love with expectation. Let us receive the abundance of truth, love and light; for these are the miracles, forces of life. Be the flow, electricity, a magnet in your current stream. Be a force field. Know what is good and acceptable unto you, and that all will come to you and find you in time, an appointed time.

I Shall Forget...

I shall forget the moment I first laid with you; we talked, and...

I shall forget who you presented me with; someone I thought I knew...for just a few.

I shall forget the day when we left Bay; a day I may find it hard to forget to say, the least..

I shall forget the song that played on that day; I surrender...to you.

I shall forget all the days we met, over and over again...

I shall forget the tenderness of our lips, don't know that I'll ever forget.

I shall forget when you gazed into my eyes and cried...thought it was so-real.

I shall forget how connected our souls entwined...dancing to one beat.

I shall forget as we could careless if the whole world was against us; yet we were all we needed.

I shall forget all the times we said we couldn't live without each other; and we are.

I shall forget the first day I welcomed you home; my heart was filled with joy, so much joy.

I shall forget when we would go to a place you'd call home; family was so pleasant.

I shall forget the drives we took; always listening to our favorite tunes--so adventurous. 

I shall forget the full moon that shined on our skin, the glow in our eyes; perfect moments.

I shall forget our private spot; swimming in our own pool of love--the ocean belonged to us.

I shall forget it all because to remember is all the more difficult; the pain is unbearable, almost.

I shall forget why I fell in deep, because the truth revealed the unknown, the unreal: I was beat.

I shall forget what we believed to be heaven sent; "I love you, because I need you in my life."

I shall forget what seemed so right; was so wrongfully mislead.

I shall forget I thought I was the one, thought you were the one; we were one.

I shall forget.....the rising sun; I could go on and on....

My Life, My Philosophy: His Grace.

If and when you make the decision to have or no longer have someone or something a part of your life, or make the choice to never associate with certain people or depart from certain things and/or situations, because it no longer serves you purpose, and/or is of no value but a hindrance, (and, not that you owe anyone an explanation nor have to prove yourself, 'cause clearly you don't, if they still remain in your life.) however; it all comes down to reason, values, morals, self dignity, self worth, standards, and first and foremost there's self love and self respect, and of course, with the exception of always giving extended love and respect towards others. We all deserve to be understood, a chance, and mostly we all deserve to be loved and cared for. It's a decision and a choice one makes, NO ONE else, but, that one person. This is your life, nothing or no-one can enter it, be a part of it, have an effect, an influence, and/or an impact unless you allow it. Everyone who enters your life enters with reason, purpose, and sometimes simply for a lesson, which one should proudly accept, moving forward. But, when it's time to give, give, and when time is up, it's up, and only you can be the judge of that, ultimately. Don't be so hard on yourself and/or on others.

Effort, I'm a strong believer in effort. Builder of people, it's what I do, it's what I believe in, and what I breathe; it's a God given gift which I obtain, and live by---always have, always will. I may be down at times, my world in full turmoil or in full force chaos, however, it will never limit me in being a supporter, an encourager of people, an inspiration, a motivator for others in helping build their dreams and fulfill their goals. I don't look for love, true love finds me, and I welcome it, cherish it, hold onto it and definitely fight for it, because no love is ever wasted love. Love is love, and we all love differently; love feels good, as it should, but sometimes it hurts, and that's okay too, however, most importantly, love is patient, it's kind, and love sometimes takes time: love is worth the effort. This world has plenty of critics, and not enough encouragers, encouragers of love and life.

You cannot give me what already belongs to me, it's mine--exactly how God intended it to be. It's not what others may think or say, no, it's what God says that counts, and I solely and utterly trust in that. This here is my illustration, the book I go by, if this here finds you well, wonderful, my mission was accomplished, and if  it offends you in any way shape or form, if this here at all makes you a tad bit uncomfortable, with all due respect, that's your problem, not mine and I will never apologize for it--mission accomplished. Sometimes the truth is very blunt, harsh, it's unjustifiable, it stands alone--it's the truth; I live for, live by it unapologetically. Be a lover of people, a lover of life--love with compassion: love yourself.
(Remember, it's not always about you.) At what point do you stop love? You don't: Love knows no end.

God bless, may the love of Christ exalt you and yours, always. #GodsPeaceBeWithYou. #ThankYou2014 #Welcome2015

Fairness Failed but Then Came Change:

Life isn't fair and people make it seem as though it is or should be. Truth is you just have to make changes where change is needed to make life fair for you. Never worrying what others may say or think. Never try and justify what you're feeling or how you view your own life. Go with what you know to be true to you, followed by the higher source you may have your faith and belief in. Your truth is the truth and shouldn't be compromised for another nor for what's not righteously right for you. #Hebrews13:5 ❤

Sacrificial Love

Are you being self-serving in a relationship? If so, where is the love in that? Real love is far from selfishness, being egotistical and a spirit full of pride. It has everything to do with providing, giving of yourself to your significant other with their best interest at hand and for their highest good. When you desire someone, be sure you have good intentions for needing to love them simply because you love and need them in your life. Ask yourself; are your purest reasons towards your loved one nothing less than to give them the best of your love you can provide them with, without any connected ulterior motives? Love conquers all, and heals a multitude of wounds, and it doesn't cover up the surface--you can't expect it to grow if you continue to open the wounds that have yet to heal. Don't be selfish, be self-sacrificial.

Be A Blessing Not A Curse

Don't miss your blessings by focusing on what others are being blessed with. Don't miss what God has in-store for you. Instead fixate your mind, re-position yourself towards the opportunities God has laid before you. God blesses everyone in different ways and that's perfectly great, because it is then we see the marvelous wonders of His great majesty. Count your blessings, not that of others, don't be envious, but happy, happy that another is happy and blessed as well. Share your goals and dreams with one another. Be a supporter, encourager and an inspiration for whomever you may come in contact with, whomever God lies before your path. You can't help someone with one hand and knock them down with the other. Rejoice for what God has done in your life and theirs and what He's yet to unfold. As long as you're still breathing, life ain't over until God says it's over. Speak life not death, share love not hate, pray to be more compassionate and less cruel. One cannot give what they do not posses and I don't mean luxury, riches and jewels, rather love, peace, wisdom and more love, which are more precious and most valuable, priceless gifts one could ever obtain. Everyone is going through a struggle as you are too. Remember, if God could pull you out of that pit He can pull anyone from their hell too; God is no respecter of persons, He loves us all. His grace is sufficient while His mercy is everlasting. Let grace cover your grace and aim and head towards your mark. We're all trying to get somewhere. ♥

Iron Sharpens Iron

It's not about being negative, proving someone else wrong, or being right. It's about being respectful, true, being trustworthy, and being your authentic self; with you, others, in any and all relationships. Whether it's an intimate, business related or acquaintanceship; being loyal, being honest, being real--they go a long way, and should always remain. After all, that is what we all desire, right? Granted, not everyone will abide or possess the same beliefs, fundamental values and/or morals. Under any and all circumstances, no-one should ever have to compromise who they are, for you are all you've got. Some will understand, some will not, and not everything can or will be explained. We all have different perspectives. As difficult as it may seem, we have to accept the fact that not everyone has the same views, and it's not our place to try and figure out life for others. We can only support each other, and hope we all learn from one another, just like iron sharpens iron so does a man sharpen another. #ToEachTheirOwn & #ToThineOwnSelfBeTrue