Nothing Else Matters.

There is absolutely nothing I cannot face with God by my side, in my life, by his grace, mercy and unconditional love. The truth is I'm not afraid nor fearful of whats to come, perhaps a little timid, scared, but with a great cause. The thought of not ever seeing you again, the day you will be completely out of my life, forever--what will become of me? I will never see you again, ever. My worst thought would be to lose you, my loved ones, the ones I've loved and/or love I can't begin to fathom the thought. I've seen death right before my eyes, felt it, experienced death with my own life; unpleasant departures. My days seem much longer with time, with the thought that you will disappear from me forever. How can this be true? How? This was not how it was supposed to play out. I loved you then, love you now, and I will forever love you with the same love, and more for all eternity. You will live in my dreams, always. You took my heart,  you have my heart, and you'll have it until I stop breathing. It's yours and nothing or no-one could ever take that away, ever. I've loved you for all of my life, even when I didn't know, because you were meant for me and I for you, you were created for me, my soul-mate. In love with you--from the beginning 'til the end. Yes, someone loved you, loves you that much, and that someone is me. If you must know, you had my heart before any other, you were always before them. I love you, darling; Forever, and Always. Always, and all with the love God has given me up until this very moment. I'm so very sorry for all the awful things I've ever said or done to hurt you, that only God knows I'm guilty of because I was angry, hurt and/or upset. I'm so very sorry. How could someone ever hate another whom they truly love with all that they are, with their whole being, their entire existence? I couldn't. My heart....